A Day in the life of...

I just got up about 45 minutes ago. So far my day is going good. No complaints from me. Talked to my sister for a little while. She's going to be graduating real soon. Now I'm just chillEn in my apt. listening to some De La Soul. Gotta work at 5:00 so until then I'm just chillEn.

Don't really have much to say today. Oh yea. Check out MF Doom. This kat is mad crazy yo. He also collobarates with this DJ Danger Mouse and they form the group Danger Doom. Here's a song off of their album "The Mouse & The Mask" ft. Talib Kweli (another one of my favorite artists). This beat is soooooo smooth. If you watch Adult Swim you've probably heard this before.




I'm always looking for new things cuz I like originality. And where I don't care to much about clothes cuz we should all be fortunate for the stuff we already have I think if you have a job and you spend and save your money wisely then you should be able to purchase a few things that you want. Along with Pharrell's clothing line Billionaire Boys Club I also want to purchase some appearl from Kidrobot. Both are really coo. Check it out when you get the chance.



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Paying Homage

A little poEm I composEd just now. I like it. hopE you Enjoy.

"Paying Homage"

A vast amount of knowledge I've acquired while in college
So to my friends and family its time to pay homage
Coming from the slums only place to go is up
I gotta keep grinding this way of life is tough
Everywhere I look people stealing people dieing
Just to get that stuff from the people thats supplying
Stereotypes of a black mans life I'm defying
Lessons from the scriptures is what I am applying
I heard my fallen brothers and sisters speak to me
Their message of peace and equality lives through me
I don't mind helping my people, but you gotta help yourself
How you gone sit around the house and expect to make wealth
The world is an ocean so I've got my fishing rod
One day my views and context will be heard on I-pods
May not have packed steal but my rhymes you gotta feel
I'm just doing what I know so just let this seed grow




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"Lost&Found"

Its been a while since I hopped on blogspot so let me apologize for not posting a lot. I've just been enjoying my summer and working.



Today will be really short. I just want to talk about something I "Lost&Found". It was a part of myself I thought I had lost for good but last night I came to the realization that it was inside of me all along. Something I couldn't truly loose but misplace. Better yet I would go so far as to say it was right in front of me all along but I lost sight of it.



Taking advice is something I do on a regular basis. I'm an indecisive person. I have to be 100% certain about something before I put my whole into it. Thats understandable wouldn't you say?



After all the hard work I put in last spring and summer I should have come back one of the most confident people in the world but instead I was clouded with doubt and fear. It was pitiful. Going up to girls second guessing myself wondering "what should I say, what should I not say?". Its not even that difficult. I complicated it to the point it seemed like I was putting the situation on a plateau that I could never reach.


...but this journey has finally concluded and now another will soon begin. I've reconnected with myself. That part of me that was lost has been found and adding that with the vast amount of knowledge I've collected will ensure that I have a place in this world. I stand with me feet firmly planted on the ground.



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Days are looking brighter!

Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm no longer a resident living on campus in a dorm. Yes...thats correct. I've moved on up like the Jeffersons!

I must say that I've been waiting on this for a long time. And yesterday was such a good day. My mom came and picked me up and my stuff was already packed so we got everything in the car and after waiting in line to be checked out of my room we bounced and headed to the Grove. They gave me a Grove shirt and me and my mom went outside and looked at the pool and she was telling me about the good stuff recently going on in her life.

Next I got my keys and met the guy whose lease I was taking over. Met one of my new roommates too and he was coo. Even helped my mom and I move in. She took me to Wal-Mart and got me some groceries, new bed sheets, we saw my cousin, and she even bought me a new phone (Which if you know me then you know I DESPIRATELY NEEDED A NEW PHONE lol but I was patient and my patience finally paid off. The lord blessed me. My mom got me a razor. Its perfect).

We ate at Chilis and then went to my Aunt Shirley's house. She hooked me up with some food too so I'll be taken care of. I love my family. They take good care of me. After that went back to the crib and got ready for work and my mom dropped me off. It was a long day but my homegirl came and took me home and I showed her and her friend my apt. After that just got hooked up to the Free Wi-fi and cleaned my bathroom and put my new bedsheets on and went to bed!

Yesterday was a good day. Ice Cube would agree with me. Thank God, my mom, and all my other family and friends. This summer its going down! Summer 09 Baby!


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Letting Go

One of the hardest things to do in life is to Let Go and move on. When you can finally say your ready to move on and get your stuff together then you've come a long way. Its a part of life. Shows that your growing up.

I've had to deal with this recently...like the past three weeks. Make it four since its Friday. Last night I saw something that really made me take a step back and reevaluate the situation and I just had to man up and say if thats what she wants to do who am I to stand in her way? If I care about her I'll let her do her and be happy for her and do me and find someone that makes me happy.

I'm really going to learn from this situation though and not just learn but apply it to the next situation I go through.



In other words I had a good, good, GOOD workout! Man I feel good and can see a difference. I move into my apartment tomorrow as well. Sister is having her graduating party where a lot of family members will be gathering. Its just so much going on. I've got my last final today at 10:30 am and I'll be officially done with this semester!


I'm about to go and finish studying. Keep God first and keep your faith in him. He'll never let you down. I see now that school is really where I'm suppose to be right now. I wouldn't have grown and matured into the person I am today if I hadn't come here. Its a blessing and a great opportunity.


Then (Me Freshman Year Fall 06)


Now (Me Junior Year Fall 08)


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Understanding & Channeling my Anger

Now I'm the first person to admit that I know things don't always go how you plan them and life is DEFINITELY not fair but how can someone more times then not end up loosing? I don't want anything handed to me on a sliver platter. I've had to work hard my entire life. If you want something in life you have to work hard and get it yourself cuz no one is going to give it to you, (that is unless your spoiled or your just fortunate enough to have things provided for you).

...I was upset at something today but seeing how life is so short and when you think about how large the universe is and how small we are it makes our problems almost insignificant. I've just got to channel my anger and use it for something positive. Like when I'm working out. Which today was a good one. I'm feeling a difference for real. I did my first pull up last night!!! I was ecstatic Dattebayo!



So I'm not going to allow things to get me down. I'm just going to keep my head to the sky and remember where Christ is and continue reading my Bible. If some opportunity doesn't open itself for me then it wasn't meant to happen and so now I'm going to continue working hard and studying and save up my money and stay on track jack!

Just needed to write to get things off my chest. Feel better already.

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Its almost here...Summer is Approaching!!!

Today was a good day. I can't complain. I'm just getting back from work and doing my laundry. Its 2:16 am and talking to friends on Facebook and watching Family Matters.


Talked to my Brother-from-another-mother last night. It was good talking to him. Always with good advice and we always talk about the good old days of Middle School at JJHS. Good times, Good times.


Well...finals are this week. Its going to be one CRAZY-ASS-WEEK to say the least, but at the end of it all I will have triumphed no matter what. Thats how I see it.


Not much more to say on here. It is kinda late. I'm praying that everything works out in my favor. I'm tired of getting the short-end-of-the-stick so to speak in life. I want my piece of the pie. Stephen Andrew Robinson deserves to be happy in life just like everyone else. I don't want to be selfish. I'm not asking for much. We'll see how it all goes.

One more thing. Big ups to my moms. I love her and without her I wouldn't be where I'm at now. Happy Mother's Day mama! I love you!



Well. I'm off to La-La Land to count these sheep




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Not much to say today

sooooooooooooooooooooooo

Work was str8 last night. I was tired. It was good for the company I had though. You know how I feel about that. If you don't you don't need to know lol

My workout today was really good. I was super tired when I got done with my upper body work out. Surprised I was able to walk upstairs to run around the indoor track. Must have a lot of stamina or something. Who knows?

Today was really laid back. I'm not use to that. I'm so use to studying or working or being in class or being in the gym or recording or writing or doing something that when I do finally get a chance to chill I don't know what to do with my time. I'll probably be headed to bed earlier then usual tonight. I'm not mad at that though.

Got some good music today. Dizzy Gillespie (R.I.P.) who was a trumpet player so I have to give him much props. Donny Hathaway is another old school kat I downloaded. Some good stuff. if you ever get the chance check it out. He's got that smooth style for when your chillEn with your lady and you two are just enjoying one another's company and...you know what the deal is.


(Dizzy Gillespie)

Anyways. Tomorrow I won't see a certain person I usually see so that'll be interesting. We'll see how that goes. It'll go good I'm sure.




Well.....






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My own worst EnEmy

You ever feel like despite all of your triumphs, all of your hard work, and all of your sacrifice you come to a point when someone is an obstacle that you must overcome to get even further? Well what if sometimes that obstacle in your way was yourself? What would you do then?


Subconsciously I set myself up for failure. Not all the time but a lot of times I'm My own worst EnEmy. Its time I just stop messing up and thinking things are going to be bad when I haven't even gone through the situation. Its like if an opportunity presents itself and its something that would be really good for me instead of embracing it I think regardless of what it is it'll be bad so I sit back in the shadows and watch as my moment of glory is taken by someone else or is gone completely for no one to grasp.



What I'm trying to say is that there is a difference in contemplating on taking a risk after measuring the pros and cons and then taking a course of action vs. doing all of that but then deciding not to do anything. To just sit back and watch as your dreams are forever put on hold because you can't step up and take hold of what you want. Well I'm done with that.

Actions speak louder then words so instead of going on and ranting about what I'm going to do or not do I'll just allow everything I do from This Point On determine the type of character I have. My integrity as a man will not be compromised nor will the many opportunities I wish to pursue.

"The only thing we have to fear is fear itself"...John F. Kennedy





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On a Day like today...

It is 11:43pm...I spent some time with some good friends of mine today. It was good to chill with them in stressing times like these. Dead Week is no joke and Finals will definitely be a challenge but I'm ready and able to tackle any obstacle these tests have to dish out.


(Here is Me, O, Cristal, & Lana)

I spent a good 3 hours and 27 minutes sitting outside talking to my good friends O, Cristal, and Michelle. It was good hanging with them. Talking about relationships, religion, and fraud people.


(Here is Michelle and me)

Got to go chill with one of my new friends today. My homeboy Todd from work. We played the X-box 360. Gears of War II, Street Fighter IV, & Soul Calibur IV. It was some good stuff. Time went by super fast.


I've been thinking lately again on this girl that I know. An interesting relationship she and I have. All I can say is that I'm chillEn on it and right now whatever happens to us is on her. Maybe if I see some changes with us I'll step up again and say whats on my heart to let her know whats up but that makes a brother feel vulnerable for real, for real. But hey...if its meant to be it'll happen.

Well George Lopez about to come on and Ima wake up early to go work out and then go to class, turn in this project, and then just chill until its time to go to work. Gotta make this scrilla!




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Insight on what was "Un-sEEn"

To all my fans out there let me say hello! Whats happening!? Hope you enjoyed my last post. Hope that the note I wrote about old and new experiences gave you some encouraging words of inspiration. If not hope you enjoyed anyways.

Not going to talk a lot today about stuff in my life other then the fact that being patient is easier said then done, but I'm staying strong. Just feeling like I'm being thrown around in a circular motion like I was laundry in the drier. I'm hoping that two weeks from now things will have calmed down and I'll be able to touch down on the ground and get my bearings straight.




The topic I wanted to address today was Insight on what was "Un-sEEn". People are always evolving and changing into greater individuals, but if thats true isn't it also safe to conclude that while others are changing for the better that others are changing for the worse.

Or maybe they aren't even changing, but what we perceived of them at first to be genuine and sincere was a mere illusion of what they wanted us to "SEE". I meet a lot of people everyday and when you allow someone into your life and they become a friend you let down your sensors and start a relationship with them. The same can be said about meeting the girl/guy your trying to talk to, but I'm not talking about that. Strictly friendship.

Fraudulent people that pretend to be real people can only keep this up for so long. Eventually someone is going too all them on all of their bull shit. Excuse my French but thats just how it is. If your real then be real and if your fake then be fake. In essence if your fake and being fake then your being real because your showing your true colors and not trying to hide the fact but people that are fake can't keep it real so thats an oxymoron.

I'm basically ranting on, but I'm seeing a lot of individuals for the people they really are. Their true colors are coming out and theres not much I can do about it but keep doing me and pushing it along.







Siyanora!!!!




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A New Chapter (Prequal)

Its 10:09am and I'm in a good state of mind. I had a good work out this morning. I'll definitely feel this tomorrow morning but its a good thing. I put in some good hours at work this past weekend too so my pay check should look very nice (even though half is going to school, other half to cell phone bill, and other half towards savings for an apartment).

Besides all of that though it is Dead Week. The University that I attend doesn't have a "True Dead Week" however some of the same policies still apply. For the most part it means just stay on your stuff and study all week and if you have class go and get the last bit of information you need.

I feel like switching it up a little. Normally I just talk about what is going on in my life but its time to dig deeper. This is my blog of course so it would mostly pertain to me but lets take a look at another aspect of my life. I feel like writing something deep.

Here goes,



So it seems as one door closes another one comes in its place for us to journey on towards our next destination in life. We have a vague perception about where this road will take us, but life is mysterious so there are many unforeseen challenges lurking in the shadows.

Many tools are bestowed upon us to help through these periods of trials and tribulations. God is the shining Light giving us a clear path to follow. Our family are the voices crying out to us encouraging us to continue treading forward and to never look back. And our friends are the helping hands that pick us back up after we've fallen several times.

As long as we believe in ourselves and have the tenacity to never give up then we shall overcome any obstacle seen or unseen. Patience and diligence are key aspects we must take advantage of to aid us as well. So stand strong, never forget who you are, and go out and get what you want out of life. It wont be handed to you, you have to take it.

By Stephen Robinson




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Fortune Cookie Fiasco

Ello-Ello world!!!

I know its been a minute but I'm back. Let me tell you. The past few weeks have been hectic and exciting all at the same time. Its like I said before. Life is suppose to be full of surprises. Uncertainty around every corner. If life were predictable then who would want to do anything? We'd already know what to expect...but luckily this isn't the case.



I've been working a lot lately and the money is really good. I'm also suppose to be moving into an apartment very soon so we'll see how that turns out as well. God willing it will all turn out good.


Today was a chill day for me. My workout felt Really Really good. Let out some frustration and just had fun. Whoever said no pain no gain wasn't joking but at least you know your doing it right. I'll be a little soar in the morning but I'm not trippin. Men can take that sort of pain.



I'm in a relaxed mood right now. Thats good right before bed. Plus I've had a good day of working out so I should sleep well tonight. If you get a chance check out this song by Nujabes I'm listening to. His beats are SICK! Awesome. Kudos to my man Nujabes!





Thats all I've got for today. I've got a long day tomorrow. Finish this long paper and then I have to work. I'll get through it though. Till next time.

See-ya.

And as always...




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